This book is about my novel, North Window.

I wrote it between 2010 and 2015.

I have written four novels in total and North Window is my third.

I had a job, family, and a house. My life couldn't seem more ordinary. I had been writing stories since my early teens and thought nothing of it.

This story seemed to bear no relevance to my life at all. An insomniac leads a double life. By day, he is drafting contracts between corporations; by night, he pays to watch an apartment window opposite.

A desperate single mother finds herself in that apartment. Why does she have a bad feeling the moment she steps foot inside? Why does the window bring unease as the shadows grow long?

A year after completing this novel, I learned something truly terrible about myself. Unbeknown to me, clues to this truth had leaked into my stories, paintings, poems and this novel.

I have since discovered another novel beneath this one; two novels in one. How did that happen?

I could not see this under-novel at all and is nothing like the one I believed I was writing. This double-storyline goes back to my early children's mysteries.

As this is a true story, I have used my diaries as part of this account. I have provided illustrations to convey the intensity of my inner world.