Over the course of five years, raw, unedited journal entries and deeply personal love letters were combined to create this compelling memoir. The book delves into Shana's anguishing yet triumphant journey as she fights to heal from past and present traumas.

From May 2019 to January 2024, Shana documented her life through journal entries, capturing her struggles with depression, loss, love, and survival. Interwoven are love letters to her spouse, who was incarcerated for the third time during their relationship. This trying period, marked by the uncertainty of court dates during the pandemic and the fragile state of their marriage, serves as the backdrop for Shana's transformation.

Through a deep dive into self-reflection, therapy, journaling, moon meditations, yoga, nature, books, podcasts, and other self-soothing tools, Shana found her light and began to thrive. Her journey is one of sacrifice and dedication, aimed at restoring herself from the roots up and paving the way for her children, loved ones, and others who have faced similar traumas and grief.

This memoir is a testament to resilience and hope, offering solace to those who have loved ones in the system. If you are someone who has experienced similar struggles, Shana's story may resonate deeply with you.